A Voice of Gentle Silence

I love my job. I was called to do this work. Even though I was called and love what I do, there are some days that discouragement sneaks into my thinking. These past few days have been challenging. I have been asking myself if we are making a difference. Are kids' lives being changed? Are families coming together with a new sense of unity? Most importantly, are people's eyes turning toward God.

In the midst of my discouragement, I was reading 1 Kings 19. Right at this point in 1 Kings, Elijah is feeling so discouraged. He thought that people would certainly turn to God after witnessing the miracles, but they didn't. Here is what happens: The Lord said, "Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the Lord, for the Lord is about to pass by." Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. After the earthquake came a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper."

The Hebrew translation calls that gentle whisper "a voice of gentle silence." Am I so focused on all that is going on around me, or am I closely listening for that gentle whisper? It is much easier to be distracted by all of the "noise" of life. I am going to listen for the gentle silence.

Being disposable

Are you disposable? Easily gotten rid of? Trash? Worthless?

I am so thankful that my God loves me and will not leave me regardless of how selfish, inattentive, and prideful I am. My God will not tire of my endless worries, my times of questioning him, my busy schedule that does not include Him. Will He give me consequences or pull me back? Yes! He will not, though, be "all done" with me. He will not get rid of me. He will not tell me I am disposable. Trash. Worthless.

Why, then, do we as a society tell our kids that if they misbehave we will get rid of them? Why do we tell kids that we will send them away if they cannot change their behavior? Why are we so quick to throw people out, because we have decided it is too much? I have sat in too many meetings this week and heard this conversation. Parents who were told they were nothing; they now tell their kids they are nothing. Satan's lies passed down from generation to generation.

If God does not quit on us, why do we quit? Are we more than God?

Thinking small

Katie had her follow up appointment with her immunologist/allergist. That is a seven hour drive each way. We have been trying the sublingual immunization therapy for the past three months. When Jon left yesterday, I decided my goal was for her to be able to eat eggs again. (The girl loved eggs, and she could use the protein. It would be great if she could eat wheat (since it is in EVERYTHING!) Milk would just be a luxury!

I don't have all of the details, and more blood work was done today; however, here are the results I do know... NO eating eggs, wheat, or milk. They increased the antigen of each allergen. Other than that... status quo. Grr... Well, really it is not that big of a deal, but I was just hoping.

She will go back again in one year. (Yes, one year.) In the meantime, we will finish this three months of treatment. The next dosage will increase the allergens again with hope of increasing the immunity.

All is well in our world. She is healthy, growing, and loads of fun.

She's Nine!

It is hard to believe that my sweet Allie is now nine years old. Like all nine year old girls, one of her birthday wishes was to open her own savings account. Really? We waited in line for an hour, but she finally has her own account. She put in every last penny she had. She did spend two gift cards but refused to spend any cash. There are a lot of things I love about my Allie. Here is my Top Nine List.

1. She always, always, always thinks of others first. She gave away her first Christmas gift to her brother. She asks for birthday items to give to her sister. She is just a thoughtful girl.

2. She is a thinker.

3. She is unique. Her ideas often surprise me. She has strong opinions and is not afraid to be alone. She accepts everyone and tries to raise the standard for everyone around her.

4. Allie loves animals. She just spent a week working at the Humane Society. She loved cleaning out the cat cages. Who likes that?

5. Although she is often told that she is a lot like me. Secretly she wants to be like her dad, too. He is Mr.Science, and Allie loves science.

6. She loves to cook and create recipes! Fun to be with in the kitchen. (She also wears the old I love Lucy aprons while she cooks.)

7. She is not afraid of hard work. She is often told, "Do you know how much work that is?" Her response is always, "I don't mind hard work."

8. She has been fascinated with all things Chinese since she was very young. I often thought of her as a missionary in China. I was reminded that she may just want to run a Chinese buffet.

9. Even though she is "fun-loving" and has the goofiest sense of humor, she feels things deeply. She really processes and thinks through things.

That is my Top Nine List on Allie for her Ninth Birthday!